AN ENDING AND A BEGINNING…

Hello lovelies, today I wanted to write a post on my thoughts about the events that have happened recently. If you don’t mind hearing about it, then keep on reading. ☺

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In this very moment, I am at the end of what has been a long, hard journey. I sit in limbo at a traffic light that has suddenly turned red and told me to stop.

After 17 years of school, I am placing a cap with a tassel on my head and a black gown over my body in order to participate in a ceremony and walk across a stage to show that I am the first person in my family to graduate from a four-year university.

It hasn’t been an easy journey, but with encouragement and help from my family and friends and my own self-motivation, I made it.

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Sometimes I wonder if maybe this isn’t as hard as it looks. School isn’t that bad as long as you manage your time and work hard, right? Plus, my major is supposed to be “easy,” so I always had that stuck in my head, that if my major is supposed to be so easy, then getting my degree should be a breeze.

But when I face the reality, I realize that being an English major is hardI had to put in hours upon hours of hard work to study reading assignments, to write papers, and to analyze articles and novels down to the word.

Most people believe that if you’re not doing STEM, then what you’re learning can’t be that difficult. But language is such a complex topic, and the majority of people that find out I’m an English major almost always respond with how they they’re not very good at writing papers. If English is so “easy,” then why do so many people complain about how difficult writing is?

I think the only reason why I didn’t find being an English major extremely hard is because it’s something that I enjoy. Even when I was being introduced to a new style of writing, a new way to analyze a piece, or a new way of reading something, I liked the challenge of a new concept. And eventually, everything would click in my head. As if it were the simplest thing in the world. And that’s how I knew I had to stick with this major; I enjoyed the work and it made sense to me, so why not turn it into a career?

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Although I’m already beginning to miss college, I do have to say I’m glad to have finished school. I’m sure there’s a possibility that I might go back one day to advance my studies or to improve my chances of being hired in today’s competitive job market, but a part of me didn’t feel like school was for me.

I’ve just never really liked studying and doing homework. I’m nowhere near a model student; I have a tendency to procrastinate and be lazy. Sometimes the work felt too tedious, and I didn’t want to study when I could be doing other things that I liked better.

But I know that I had to do this. Not just for myself but for my parents. My family didn’t sacrifice their lives just so I could have it easy and settle. I have to put in the work and make my family’s struggles worth it.

And that leads me to here. And now that I’m here, I’m excited yet nervous to see what’s next. I’m not sure where I’m going, but I know that whatever’s meant to happen will happen in time. Success will come as long as I work hard enough. Even though sometimes I feel like I’m behind, I shouldn’t compare myself to others because it will only lead me to ignore my own accomplishments.

And of course, this ending is also just the beginning. There’s so much to look forward to. When I walk away from my commencement ceremony, I’ll be taking the necessary steps to close this chapter of my life, but I’ll also be walking towards the beginning of the next chapter. And right now, it might be a blank page, but soon it will be filled with successes and failures in the years to come. And that’s okay, because that’s how imperfectly perfect life is.

Congratulations Class of 2017, we made it.

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And those are my thoughts for today! I thought I would share them because it’s been on my mind, and because why not? Maybe you might be able to relate to this, or maybe you won’t, but that’s okay. I just wanted to put it out there.

Also, there’s going to be more content and photos pertaining to my graduation and college in general this week, so be on the lookout for that if you’re interested! My graduation photos were taken by my friend David; you can check out his website here!

Anyways, thanks so much for reading. For those of you who prefer my beauty and fashion posts, don’t worry; tomorrow I’ll be reviewing a skincare product! I’ll see you then!

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