Hi lovelies, today I wanted to get a little personal about how life has been lately for me.
I spoke briefly about my mental health in my 2018 resolutions post, but basically, I’m the type of person that feels emotions strongly, and happiness can feel elusive at times. I’ve had moments where I felt better, but sometimes I felt as if I was Alice in Wonderland falling down an endless dark hole. Overall, I’ve had issues with trying to be happy most of my life, but the worst bout of it happened a year and a half ago and I still struggle with it daily.
I’ll be dedicating an entire post to mental health because I feel like it’s an important topic, but I wanted to start now because it’s something that’s really impacted my life. One of the areas that it’s affected is my blog. I haven’t been as consistent and motivated as I’ve wanted to be, and I feel like I’m lacking when it comes to quality content.
Thankfully, I can report that I’ve been feeling a lot better in the last couple of months, but anyone with mental health issues can probably attest to the fact that these things don’t just “go away.” You have to take care of yourself, become more aware of your emotions, and in some cases seek help.
I don’t know how I’ll be feeling in the future, but I want to strive to start taking better care of myself and to improve this blog!
This part is the main reason why I wanted to write this post. I’ve never really had any physical health problems growing up, but I’ve always dealt with foot pain. Once I got to college, the pain escalated because I was constantly walking all over campus, and working in food and retail also took a toll on my feet.
I’ve never really talked about this except to close friends; I’ve always just sucked it up and dealt with the pain. I guess it’s the people-pleaser in me, but I don’t like being the one to ruin the fun or go home just because my foot hurts.
I can recall several times when I would finally be alone after a long day and have to limp to my car or house before finally throwing my shoes off and my feet would still be throbbing from running around all day. I also had to start icing my feet when I was working in retail because they would hurt a lot after my shifts.
Almost all of my shoes give me pain after a couple hours of walking, so it’s always been a struggle to enjoy going out when my feet hurt. This is because of a bunion I have on my right foot. I inherited it from my grandfather and it’s become more prominent in recent years. I also have a low arch and overpronate, so I’m sure that contributes to the pain as well.
However, by the time this post is up, I’ll actually be recovering from getting surgery. It’s taken almost 2 years to be approved for the operation, but it’s finally happening! Because of the surgery, I won’t be able to walk for 3 weeks and the healing process is about 2 months in total. Full recovery takes up to about a year, but since I’m on the younger side, the recovery time might be shorter. The 3 procedures I’m doing are getting my bunion aligned with a pin, shaving down my tailor bunion, and lengthening my achilles tendon to help with some flexibility issues.
Because I’ll be on bed rest and taking lots of time to heal, I wanted to announce that my blogging schedule will now be changed from 5 days a week to Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays! I’ve also been taking photos in bulk so there should be plenty of things to post from the comfort of my bed, haha.
Edit: It’s day 2 after my surgery and I’m in a lot of pain, so I guess depending on how I feel, my blogging schedule might not be consistent at the moment. But I’m sure once I start feeling better, things will pick up!
So that’s what’s really been going on in my life. Emotionally, it’s been quite the rollercoaster and I’m pretty nervous about my surgery, so hopefully all goes well! Thanks so much for taking the time to read this post; let me know what you’ve been up to in the comments! Also, we’re almost at 200 followers, so thank you to everyone who’s taken the time to read and follow this blog. I’ll see you lovelies soon!