23 | LOST & FOUND

Another year gone by.

23.lostandfound

Meet me at the lost and found.

I don’t remember when I found myself in the lost and found
Cast aside into a pile on the island of misfit toys.
I spent so much time wearing personalities as masks
Trying to morph into costumes and shapes that just weren’t right
I just wanted to belong somewhere, but I ended up here instead.

Now I’m faced with facing my bare, naked face
To discover who I really am
Sitting in a dim, dusty box at the lost and found.

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I wish I could map out the future,
Input the coordinates and discover exactly what’s next
Or that dandelions and birthday candles
Could really make wishes come true.
I want to know the unknown
Or at least what’s around the corner

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But the more time I spent on that lonely island
The more I came to recognize my reflection without a mask.
The quirks and traits I had repressed deep down were a pleasant surprise
Like the feeling you get when you find hidden pockets in your clothes
I wondered why I had kept these secrets to myself
Why was I afraid of who I was without a character to play?

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I wanted to be like everyone else.
I searched for myself in validation and acceptance from others,
Instead of evolving into my own identity.
But now I’m somewhere between lost and found.

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The edges are still fuzzy
Like when you’re clumsily reaching for your alarm in the morning
Half-awake, half-fighting with leftover melatonin.
But clarity comes with time, when the light gets lighter
When the dust gets dusted off

And gathers among the masks instead
When I stop looking for the coordinates for buried treasure
Because you don’t need to dig too deep to find what you’re looking for.
I shouldn’t be afraid of taking the wrong path
If I’m lost, then I’ll be found again one day.

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Meet me at my new home, the lost and found.

Let’s be lost and found together.

Happy 23rd birthday to me. I hope I can find the strength to leave negative memories behind, fight my inner demons, and shed the masks I used to live with. Thanks so much for reading and I’ll see you lovelies soon. ❤

Thoughts of birthdays past:
Turning 22
Turning 21